:: BïtS 'N' PiëCÉS ::

sabato, luglio 30, 2005

:: medical musical & some other stuff ::

The MM was hmmm so-so lah, i can't help comparing it to huang2cheng2 (the annual play held by HCJC) and the centennary play we had in SCGS during out final year there... i still rem crying my eyes out at that play. heh. i think. but then again, it's not fair to compare medical school with scgs wat rite? we had so much time to prepare for the centennary play then, even O levels took second place! haha... ahhhh, gone are those carefree days where there were no unfriendly competition, sneaky bitchings, talking behind others' backs, the unpleasant side of life (and its people)... SCGS was such a happy lil'bubbly place... no fears, no worries, life then was a bed of roses indeed. *sob sob* miss SC so much!

PS: SANZ, MICH, OPEN HOUSE COMING SOON! WANNA GO SEE? WE JUST PRETEND WE ARE SCOUTING FOR POTENTIAL PRI SCH FOR OUR SISTERS/COUSINS/FUTURE DAUGHTERS...

kudos to Ivan for his damn cool performance, that guy's amazing, i never knew he had such hidden talents:
- drama
- singing (one of the better singers there)
- tap-dancing
- and hair that's sooo long and silky! ah jealous!

Cheok and Lynette were awfully cute... lynette reminds me of rosario (will and grace) heh heh heh...

MM was an emotionally draining event, apart from the fact that it was so drawn out and there were too many subplots in it. the complicated love triangle was neither here nor there, it wasn't well-developed enough and it didn't have an ending (i guess they wanted it that way but...) maybe they should have scrapped it all together. the evil plans to buy over the medical school? sounded a bit too YLL to me, but unfortunately we couldn't do what they did in the play... that part where they managed to make the evil person sign the agreement was rather corny. when would this ever happen in real life???

It made me think of my first year in medical school. can't remember whether i was all out to 'save the world' but it definitely isn't what i'm doing medicine for now... hmm... 'saving the world' just seems to big and too noble. i'm content to do whatever little thing i can to help those i am able to. I'm proud to be a member of the faculty and i hope to make them proud of me as well...

(sidenote: yeah lately i've done something that i'm not particularly proud of and hmmm given a chance, i'd do it differently, i hope it won't be harped upon or too widely spoken of, or i'll probably end up blah-ing again...)

but what is true is how i've changed since then.
then, i was:
- VERY shy
- VERY uncomfortable talking to any guy
- VERY boring
- VERY studious
- VERY toot
- VERY much a mugger
- VERY um... not there in the fashion sense...

now, i am:
- getting increasingly BHB
- comfortable talking to most guys
- always falling asleep
- i would like to say i am no longer a boring person, but that's sth i leave my frds to judge
- toot or not? i hope not lah...
- not so studious, my grades are proof of my 'slackness'...
- claims to be mugger, but actually not a mugger liao. haha...
- fashion sense ah, still not quite there yet

but hmm... in the light of recent events and the growth of a little green sapling that my two friends have been watering and fertilising (with much enthusiasm, sheesh!)... and a sms just a few hours ago... i've realised that... well, i have failed to really open up to anyone. sadly... it's not you guys (you all are always very supportive and encouraging) but it's just myself. i don't find it easy to 'open up'... and most times, by the time i open up to you all, it's because i've already dealt with whatever emotional entanglement that was. i don't know how easy i am to 'read' especially regarding matters concerning interpersonal relationships, but i don't think it's that easy... afterall, i tend to always appear with either one of these three emotions on my face:
- sleepiness
- irritation
- cheerfulness
i guess when i am sad, i also look cheerful, when i'm stressed i look irritated or overly chirpy... and when i'm disappointed, i look... ... still cheerful. seems like all but one has been able to see through my fake cheerful periods: afterall, it was almost a month after nico left that people actually realised he had gone... (and it was because i opened my mouth to tell them...)

oh dear, i've gone to expect too much from friends again! i cannot expect people to be the kun1 cong2 in my stomach after all... haiz...

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