martedì, agosto 31, 2004
:: specialists are too specialised ::today i went for my f/u at nuh, same place same doc. anyway, apart from the normal ix, nothing much else. yup there was a reg in the clinic tt day... and the prof was so distracted. maybe she's just busy having to cope with all the work tt piled up while she was on sem. anyway, she was pretty short tempered today. hmmph... told me to 'use medical terms to describe cuz i'm not a layman'... walau... ok fine. i can't help it mah, i'm a patient at the moment.
anyway, when i told her of my DYSPEPSIA no a/w HEARTBURN, REGURGITATION and no CHEST PAIN, DYSPNOEA, SOBOE... she immediately wanted to refer me to a gastroenterologist for SCOPING! wey too much la... can't even give me some trial medication first... so i said: huh, SCOPE! w/o medical rx first! @@ <- these are my eyes, O <- this is my mouth.
so she relented and gave me omeprazole 20mg om.
next i told her, hey i've got calluses on my feet, is there anything else i could do to remove them? she said: use moisturiser... so i said, i use daily but doesn't help. and she said: use moisturiser will work... so i said: i USED but DOESN'T work.
haiz... face it she's NOT receiving... maybe i'll get hold of some salicyclic acid and nail filers... and we'll file that lot away! ha...
i agreed to take part in a study... 'prospective study of periodontal disease risk markers and treatment outcome of a periodontal programme for adult diabetics in singapore'. basically they'll need my tri-monthly HbA1c, lipid levels, CRP levels and periodontal condition. it sounded like a single blind study... but but... the one in charge actually read out aloud the grp i was placed in after i drew the lot! em, so it's non-blind? huh. heck, anyway i'm in the chk dental condition, scaling and oral hygiene education grp. haha.. better than just get oral hygiene education rite?
bleah. dunno wat the study will show. i got sooo confused by the doc explaining to me. anyway, the fact tt i'm taking part in it is because:
1. i'm such an amenable (or compliant) patient
2. i've overcome my dislike for dental procedures!!!
hurray for me!
domenica, agosto 29, 2004
El Diario Vivir*...interesante! puedo aprender m'as espanol con este sitio. cuanto m'as practico, leo o escribo, tanto m'as me mejoro.
:: fR@NCéSCä :::: kudos to blogger.com for the new bar ::
wow! this bar actually works! it lets u get to bloggermain with a click of a mouse... can do search... can blog directly into your blog, without the trouble of logging in... does some of it's own advertising (get your own blog) and best of all, i lurve the 'next blog' function, it's cool to just browse random blogs and sometimes i do find such lovely things! i've noticed tt bloggers generally come fr parts of the world that speak english, portuguese, spanish, (some eastern european language) and mandarin (only one so far)... all these are mentioned in order of frequency. :)
portugues is pretty cool, so animated and suave... been browsing such blogs more... picking up stuff. hehe but i won't know how to pronounce anyway...
ok, i've so much verbal diarrhoea, but i think it's doing me good. i suffered from a particularly BAD attack of dyspepsia, bloatedness of stomach, nausea a/w some regurg (due to yang2sheng1shui3). now i still feel bloated... am on domperidone and disflatyl now. must diarrhoea everything out via blogging. tata...
:: my bro's on tv ::
haha... suah ku me...
lol... i think he looks teeny bit FATTER on tv (thank god!) any thinner he'll look cachexic... lolz... ok not tt bad... just thin la... maybe when he goes to ns he'll like build up a bit of bulk (muscle) and maybe when he comes out after ns he'll add on more bulk (fat).
anyway, he's now the vice-pres of the boon lay youth club and investing a significant portion of his time in... eh hem... improving the lives of pple in that area and organising activities for youths... in other words, provide free labour for the government in helping to brainwash more teenagers into being pro-gov. and wat's more... under the delusion that they're developing their interpersonal skills and whatnots.
lolz... anyway he's happy and i think the pple there will do him good for character development, so i think just let him do what he wants, he happy i happy. haha... (rem u jump i jump... a la singapore way) crappy me.
now while i crap, my chapter on rheumatoid arthritis is left abandoned... ok time to go back to R.E.A.D. tom got tut with dear dr lee. :) she's nice... and i def dun wanna look like an idiot/dumbass/blurqueen/tomato at her tut.
paradoxically cheers, a severely dyspepsic liqi
:: runaway jury ::
adapted from a novel by john grisham, 'runaway jury' is about the lawsuit: one woman vs guns industry. now... we all know that in the US, the jury is selected at random, brought to the court and undergo a selection trial in which both sides will agree to allow the person on the jury or decide on a 'challenge' instead. u should see all the background checks and bugging the pple hired by the guns industry did to help them decide which of the potential jury would be on their side or would have some kind of dirty laundry they could use to 'persuade' them to swing the verdict to their favour. so much for JUSTICE! well, while the two sides battle it out, unknowing to all, there's someone working WITHIN the jury, a man with a past that no one knew... and on the outside, he has a girlfriend, working with him. both intend to manipulate the trial according to their OWN agenda...
the cool part of this film is the plot... the scheming and the blatant disrespect for privacy... outrightly defying the american constitution! well... it makes pple think... and wonder... how much of their life is really 'private'... i like the ending, there isn't really a twist but a relevation which makes this entire film quite humane and lovely... :) the plot's quite gripping and once more, i'm v guilty to say, i left kumar and clark open and abandoned at the asbestosis... haha... luckily that's not one of the must-see cases... rite?
:: lost in translation ::
well before i start... i'd like to say that scarlett johannson, like her name, is really pretty... and that i like her lipstick a lot. heh heh... it's a really nice film... subtle... yet so charged with emotions. maybe to some they'd say it's boring, yet i was transfixed to the tiny tv screen (i watched on dvd) while talley/o'connor lay open and untouched in front of me. it's about how two americans who happen to stay in the same hotel, getting to know each other and spending a wonderful week in tokyo. note that wonderful excludes the usual things like sex and passionate love. there're lots of soulful looks, sidewards glances and other subtilies and those are the stuff of the film. bill murray stars as a middle aged actor, long past his prime, estranged from his wife and kids, all alone in tokyo, where he's at least a head taller than everyone in the elevator. he appears worn, jaded, even bored. scarlett, on the contrary is relatively newly-married and has followed her husband, a musician, to tokyo. she's young but paradoxically looks fatigued, indifferent, lost and so lonely in this alternate culture. it's beautifully filmed, it's realistic, and it's touching, and peppered with little funny turns here and there. i would recommend it for all, especially those who want a change from typical action/love/drama films. watching 'love in translation' was like biting into a cool refreshing grapefruit. dun ask me why or how i drew tt analogy...
:: japanese name generator ::
this is pretty cool... i have such a nice sounding jap name, note on the sounding, cuz the only jap i know is arigato, ohaiyogozaimasu, konochiwa and wata shiwa liqi desu. lolz... so pathetic. so i need AGAG to verify this site for me. haha...
My jap name is:
石丸 Ishimaru (round stone) 久美å� Kumiko (eternal beautiful child)
Find out yours!
giovedì, agosto 26, 2004
:: feedback session ::i've just received an email that at 6.45PM tom, i'm supposed to go BACK to nus (after a tiring, brain bogging day of longwinded lecturers and equally longwinded patients and mind-boggling complex cases) i have to go listen to the DEAN talk about our postings in SGH (and also those pple in KKH). we're supposed to give FEEDBACK about our posting there.
sure i'd love to do it:
if...
- i had spent more than the mere 4.5 days in SGH (by fri tom) (come on... how accurate can feedback get like this... prob get something really skewed and biased fr me, esp since i'd be in a blacker mood then Black Monday)
- it wasn't at 6.45pm and i didn't have to TRAVEL all the way back to school (oh yeah, gimme my travel allowance)
- if i didn't have better stuff to do, like em... mugging, and spending quality time with my family! (impt k... all this studying and mugging's taking up a lot of my time, i NEED family time too! hahaaa)
ps: have to clarify that although longwinded lecturers are NOT ok with me, i'm perfectly fine with longwinded patients. if they're feeling bored and alone the least i could do is to listen to them)
basically i detest feedbacks. i don't know how much they actually work! and all that crap about it being anonymous? haha think again, they get you to write down your name too when you've finished.
stupid.
life here is just sooooo oppressive!
pps: any fellow classmate that has read this and begs to defer, please keep your opinions to yourself. i'm in a crappy mood and i need some release. if you're going to deny me even this, then i wish you'd just go get gonorrhea (for a guy) and paget's disease (for a gal) :P haha i feeeel soooo evilllll!
:: singapore idol ::
i have to wonder, which is worse, the ktv-like singing (of some of the contestants) or the unnatural judges. they make such cheesy, clich'ed comments... my personal opinion is that it's weird seeing asians trying so hard to be like simon (who's obviously NOT asian)... there's a difference between both cultures' behaviours and seeing an asian sounding like an american or seeing an asian with a fake american/english accent (wrt this point, i dun mean the judges i was talking about some OTHER pple) just makes my stomach turn.
crappy mood, crappy schoolwork... can't wait for the weekends...
so i can get MORE studying done!
domenica, agosto 22, 2004
:: Bourne Supremacy ::I watched this on a hot saturday afternoon, on dvd,; i think it was a good movie. It was probably exciting. Bourne possibly looked as 'hot' or as great as he normally does... and the plot was almost just as intriguing and kind of messy...
I'm not very sure about all this, cuz i somehow fell asleep towards the end of the show.
I shall set my goal for next saturday: i aim to finish watching 'the bourne supremacy'.
venerdì, agosto 20, 2004
:: from Clinton to the rest of the med fac ::Here's something i would like to keep with me, and read when i feel discouraged or disappointed, and something to read when i become a doctor, to remind me what my aspirations were, when i first chose to study medicine. -- Li Qi
Dear friends,
Today officially marks the end of our first posting. I believe all of us would have had our fair share of experiences, both pleasant as well as unpleasant. I write this mail in the hope of encouraging the discouraged. I personally had a tough posting. I felt drained everyday both mentally and physically. On top of thatI found myself seriously lacking practical skills. I kept mixing PSMs and ESMs, missing murmurs, not feeling apex beats, not feeling peripheral pulses, cannot percuss properly ... any mistake or inadequacy you can think of, I probably had it. All this made me think ... Am I really cut out to be a doctor? I really wanted to give up ... All my inadequacies started making me feel I really din have wat it took to master the art of medicine. However, during a chat with my tutor she told me this, "Skills should be the least of your worries. You have a lifetime to master it. All the assessments you will go thru are merely signposts to tell you where you are now. Some of us will run faster than others but it doesn't matter because all of us will get there eventually so long as we keep at it." "The most important consideration should be whether you want to be a doctor. Whether you want to spend the rest of your life looking after sick people; whether you are willing work hard and sacrifice for your patients. You will doubt from time to time; when a patient dies on you, when you have long nights. But during these times if you believe that you want to look after sick people and bring comfort and hope to them then tell yourself with confidence that you are the right person for the job." I write this mail as I know that some of us are discouraged and I hope that knowing you are not alone in your struggles will bring some form of relief. In addition I hope by sharing my tutor's words with you, it will bring a renewed purpose into why on earth we're into this thing called medicine!
God bless, Clinton
mercoledì, agosto 18, 2004
:: pent up angst ::the more i read xiaxue, the more i think she's got majorly pent up angst, probably against anyone who doesn't agree with her views, even though she might say that she's open to criticism and comments. heh.
i hope she writes less about pple who've 'insulted' her and more about other things in life. face it, we can't please everyone and doesn't it get a bit tiring responding to all these similar insults? anyway if she isn't, i'm getting weary of hearing about those stuff...
heh... at this point, she's probably gonna say, 'yup dun read my blog then, if you're sick of it'.
laughs. i wish she would stop being so defensive.
:: cool blog ::
hey this is a cool blog: http://sacrificezone.blogspot.com/
nevermind what he's writing (i didn't read anyway, was having an awful splitting headache) but it's really fun... and coool...
i'll do almost anything to get hold of that code!
lunedì, agosto 16, 2004
:: http://www.xiaxue.blogspot.com/ ::damn right interesting blog! so funny, witty and tongue-in-cheek. covers everything fr 'politics' (lol... look at 'Dr Tony Tan' entry) to shoes... some pple say she's frivolous but i think she's original and manifests the true 'blogger-spirit'! blogging in what one believes rather than what others want to read.
she's got the rare ability to evoke emotions from readers so much that they're prompted to respond to her! that's a rare gift!
domenica, agosto 15, 2004
:: el evang'elico de las maravillas ::ayer por la noche, mire' esta pel'icula con mis amigos. fue la primera vez que una de mis amigas miraba tal pel'icula. pienso que no fue una buena experiencia para ella. jaja... es una l'astima que elijiera esta pel'icula. todo el mundo se puse confundido cuando la pel'icula se termin'o. jeje... sin embargo, cuando volv'i a casa, pens'e m'as en la pel'icula y sent'i que hab'ia un significativo profundo. pues, me voy a tratar de explicarlo.
por lo primero, la pel'icula muestra que no es posible crear un mundo perfecto. un mundo sin dolor, sin lagrimas sin todo tipo de padecimiento. lo mismo se entiende con el libro 'el mundo perfecto' por aldous huxley. la palabra 'utop'ia' se parece una buena cosa pero no se puede hacer en realidad. as'i es la vida. para m'i... prefiero un mundo con todo, no me gusta el sufrimiento pero eso es muy importante. sin eso, no se puede apreciar el valor de la felicidad, no se puede guardar lo bueno que se tiene como un tesoro.
la pel'icula gira sobre tres personajes - tomasa, papa dorita y fidel. Tomasa es una joven innocente y sencilla. huy'o de su mama, una prostituta, o una puta (como dijo), sin un objetivo en la vida, se siente perdida y confundida muchas veces. cuando mama dorita se muri'o y tomasa se encarg'o con la tarea de 'la nueva virgen', se puse m'as y m'as confundida. trat'o de huir otra vez pero no pudo. lo curioso es que empez'o mantener relaciones sexuales con todos los hombres en los cuarteles y solo ella pod'ia hacerlo. era como la diosa de las rameras... lo mismo que su mama! he o'ido que lo m'as se odia de los padres, es lo mucho que nos parecemos a ellas. quiz'as sea cierto.
el amor entre pap'a basilio y mam'a dorita merece mucho respeto. hay raro que uno pueda ver tal carin~o entre dos personas. para m'i, son las personas m'as normales en la secta.
fidel es como tomasa. muy joven, muy inseguro, y afronta la crisis de identidad. (jeje... no s'e como escribirlo en la manera espan~ola). de cualquier manera, fidel no puede aguantar el estr'es de su t'io y escap'o a la secta. all'i, 'el se vest'ia como una mujer. por fin, tomasa le ayud'o a tomar la decisi'on. (pienso que no voy a ser tan expl'icita. jeje... pueden imaginar)
est'a pel'icula es tan extra~na, y tan poca natural. supongo que el concepto de esto culto no va bien conmigo. el estilo de su ropa me pone 'urgh'...
despu'es est'a pel'icula, me voy a eligir la pr'oxima pel'icula mexicana con mucho cuidado!
:: reflections of a 'gospel of wonders' ::
on the surface, 'the gospel of wonders' might seem really stupid and boring, and confusing (actually i still think it is) but anyway to make my 9bux worth it and also becuz i feel this impending urge to analyse it... (i think i'm a rationalising freak, everytime there's something i dun understand, i got to rationalise it... and i got to get the answer to all my questions too).
i think this movie proves once more that a utopian world will never exist, as seen in 'brave new world' and '--- -------'. somehow, it seems that the typical sins are inborn in all of us. there doesn't seem to be a way where we can protect ourselves from each other and from ourselves. despite all the precautions taken to preserve the only 'human' left in the new world, (brave new world), it was unable to stop him from taking his own life. Similarly in this movie, despite all the cries and promises of joyousness, of salvation from the end of the world and of unadulterated heavenly peace, 'los sublimos' still ended up commiting one of the greatest sins - murder.
maybe the whole big deal of life is not about protecting ourselves from the 'tools of the devil' (as many religious grps or more like cults put it) - like money... (this cult went even as far as to say tt movies are evil) as can be seen in this film, despite all the precautions taken, i think, we need to protect ourselves from ourselves more then we need protection from any other things.
it seems to me that humans are simply unable to put their faith in an idea, a belief, and to put our faith in ourselves, we have to worship something else... the simple idea of a God existing is not enough for us... we just HAVE to have a idol, something to put on the altar, on the wall... like dolls, statues, crosses, figurines... i think i would be more interested in a religion that didn't have an object to represent it. (but i think that's almost impossible, anyone know of a religion such as this, pls drop me a note!)
hmmm... i like the idea of an inherent madness in us. (yo, AG, that would help us rationalise a bit, it's ok to be a bit cranky after all u know! haha) Just look at Tomasa, young, beautiful, at the brink of puberty, handed a computer and a title of 'the new virgin' (ie. the chosen one they believe would bring forth the second christ) and there she goes creating her weird rules.. (or rather, hallucinating that God has talked to her and given her various tasks)... the entire setting just looked so weird and creepy to me, it's like there's something majorly wrong in there and i just wanna get out of it asap!
the film reminded me a little of this old film 'the gods must be crazy' (think most of u shld have caught it by now, it's hilarious isn't it) anyway, it's kind of paralleled here. Tomasa has a gameboy and a flower tattoo on the arm as well as knows how to play games on the computer. the prophet, took these as signs that she was the messiah... that all these were signs fr above that she would be the new virgin... ok, i dunno to laugh at the ridiculous nature of it or to cry at the fates of all those who would be under her tutelage!
till now i have no idea what the ending means... i would like to think that they adopted an egyptian style to mama dorita's burial... maybe those guilty of butchering fidel ate blue paint or some kind of poison and committed mass suicide and tomasa and her remaining faithful followers were buried or jumped off the cliff or sth (simply, just die) together with the mummified corpse of mama dorita. then the film-crazed papa basilio somehow managed to get this all down on film which he spends the rest of his life watching! hahaha....
:: secret window ::
starring johnny depp, this film is about a writer who suffers from an impending divorce and a writer's block, who retreats to his lakeside house, isolated on the hills, alone. as if the stress of his divorce and his book weren't enough, a texan shooter turns up one day at his doors, acusing him of plaigerism... weirdly enough he hands depp a script identical to the one he himself had written many years ago... 'the secret window'... from there, his life spirals into a frantic attempt to retrieve the original publication of his story as well as patch up the relationship with his wife. now, all this stress is definitely not going to be healthy for him....
a gripping film with a great twist! keeps you on the edge of your seat, eyes glued to the screen! - that's me
venerdì, agosto 13, 2004
:: the village ::i've been meaning to write a little something about this new phenomenal, fantastic film by night shylaman, but i was too lazy slacking in the hospitals and too occupied with my part time job as a 'by day vampire at AH' by night 'MS battling against the god of sloth'.
basically 'the village' is a movie set in the 'colonical times' USA, about a fear that never should have been there, a theory so complicated and so utopian, it would give aldous huxley a run for his money. it's a suspenseful story about a creatures in a forest terrorising a village surrounded by the forest. it's also about love (this is the dominant theme), love between parents and children, love between a woman and (unfortunately two men)... it's about how love can strengthen, and how love can destroy a man. most importantly, it brings up the question of whether when we love someone, do we do all we can to protect them, and to what extent are we willing to do that.
it's a very worthwhile watch, and those people who've watched and said it's boring, or uneventful, it's obvious that you lack the ability to look beyond the surface. i would say, it might even be worth a second watch!
sabato, agosto 07, 2004
:: whore ::interesting docu-picture... really opened up my eyes to lots of stuff. :) haha.... i lurve the spanish, cuz they had all the different accents, by pple fr different countries... spaniards, argentinians, colombians, mexicans and so on... cute! there was only a little bit of italian, but seriously, italian sounds so much like spanish sometimes... i'm beginning to be better at picking up wat's been said for italian.
hmm... it's an interesting sort of movie, in the concept and they way they film it. v informative as well, about the history of prostitution, a 'profession' that goes to the earliest time when men and money existed. hehe... (and of cuz women)
mercoledì, agosto 04, 2004
:: down with gastroenteritis ::can't believe this virus is so potent! my entire family kena stomach flu! i did a spectacular vomit this morning, haha it even looked a bit projectile... n the vomitus was partially digested food and gastric juice. then i got worried abt gastric outlet obstruction... and then.... wat made it worse was when i flipped open Burkitt's and i found out... the most common cause of gastric outlet obstruction is gastric CA. talk abt being paranoid.
it's not good being sick and having to study for surgery test. anyway it won't be tomorrow as reyaz previously said, cuz he's not free, it'll probably be on friday instead. i hope that i will get the test by this week so i can 'rest' and 'relax' over the long weekend. :)
domenica, agosto 01, 2004
:: cheemology explained ::Full many a gem of purest ray serene,The dark unfathom'd caves of ocean bear
This means that in the deepest parts of the ocean, there can still be found, the most precious treasures
Full many a flower is born to blush unseen,And waste its sweetness on the desert air.
This means that in the desert, there are still beautiful flowers that bloom yet wither without their beauty being appreciated.
The meaning of the above is that in a desert-like, barren place where it seems that there is nothing of value, there is actually something v precious, waiting for us to appreciate, all we need to do is to find them.
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